2:Talk about your FIRST KISS.
Ah my first kiss. I had liked this guy in my English class Junior year of high school for a while now. He was like this cool, doesn’t really talk to many people,weird but hot mysterious type. So I made it my mission to become friends with him. I don’t know where this braveness came from because although we were in the same class, I don’t think he had a clue who I was. So I just started saying hi to when we’d be walking into class our leaving. When I’d see him during lunch or break I would start random conversations with him and I think I remember him just nodding and laughing at the stuff i’d say. Well I guess we became friends and I just remember it was close to summer and I asked him if he wanted to hang out after school. So he came over, he drove and we were 16 so he got even more hot points, and we had the longest day. We got a group together and we played basketball until the sun started setting and then me and him were in my living room talking and I FELL ASLEEP! lol. I woke up like idk how much later and I was like omg im so sorry and bam he kissed me. It was awesome but also like a horrible kiss hahaha. I just didn’t know what to do with my mouth oi xp.
3:Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for.
Ha, hmm that’d be my ex-bf. Which I guess I’m okay talking about now but yeah I loved that hell out of that guy. We were in a film editing class together in community college and I thought he was so cute and so freaken smart because he was one of the top editors in the class. He actually works on films and stuff now in LA so that’s pretty cool. I guess I had a good eye ha. Anyways I would text kitanajane about him all the time and she would tell me I should talk to him and so I just started talking to him about random stuff cuz I guess that’s the method I use when I’m trying to get a guys attention. It didn’t take long for him to ask me out on a date, which I had a movieish reaction to, like as soon as he walked away cuz we were walking out of class I started jumping up and down like omg omg omg omg finally yes! And I called kitanajane and told her what happened and then yeah I just completely fell in love with him.
5:Talk about the best birthday you’ve had.
Hmm I think my favorite bday was when I turned 22. My mom and Michael had teamed up and threw me a surprise party! I was totally surprised, and i lurve surprises. A ton of my family was there and a few friends and I just loved it. Also I got some great presents, a few which I still have cx.
8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of
Oh this is a tough one. Hmm I think I am just proud of where I am going with my life. I know what I want to do and I am just more determined than ever to get there. I am more aware of myself as a person and just really who I am, and idk I guess it sounds weird to say that I am barely realizing who I am ha but yeah I am just looking forward to the future all the time.
9:Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.
Ah this is a good one because I’m finally starting to lose some of my post break up, study abroad chubs. I like my waist and how it just seems small compared to the wideness of my hips. I like this palm sized birthmark I have on my back, I always say its shaped like a heart ha. Sometimes I just plain ol like my whole body.
15:Talk about the time you were most content in life.
I don’t think I could possibly pin point one point in my life where I was really happy. I try to be just be happy even when times are bad, looking for the little pleasures and not focusing on all the stress and negative really helps me get thru things.
22:Talk about your worst fear.
I use to be so afraid to end up alone. Now I feel like, at least I experienced romantic love once and if that was my peak I will be sad but at least I had that. I think my biggest fear now is that I don’t do everything I can to really fulfill my life with as many possibilities as possible. I don’t want to look back and just have a bunch of should have, could have kind of thoughts.
24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.
I honestly can’t pin point one exact moment. I think I just sort of take everything I hear, and experience and mold it into one giant philosophy for myself.
29:Talk about what turns you on.
I’m only turned on when I’m ovulating duh lol jk. I think passion and intelligence about something is just sooooo incredibly sexy. I could listen forever to a guy talk about anything from his passion to music, mechanics,or even a coin collection lol. Seeing a guy talk about that and just get a smile on their face because they are just so in the zone and into it is just awesome. It doesn’t have to be cool or anything, it just makes it cool that they are so into it. I really like when I a guy can realize that verbal communication isn’t everything. I have started to realize that yeah I’ve never been much of a talker when it comes to my feelings but I have other ways that I show it. Which I know, nobody can read your mind but sometimes when I talk a lot it is actually less meaningful then when I am just saying a few things and just basking in the moment ha. Smiles smiles smiles! Ah kill me, a great smile seriously just does it for me. Also I may not look it but I really care about my health and taking care of my body. Yeah I do like food and I am not super fit, but I also don’t just try to eat super unhealthy all the time. Last but definitely one of my favorites, kissing. Oh yeah kiss me with passion out of no where, don’t tell me to come here or can I kiss you. Just put your hands on my hips and do it lol. I think as I get older kissing just for kissing sake is not done that much anymore and its a real shame because kissing is awesome.
30:Talk about what turns you off.
People who have no ambition in life. Lol like yeah I know sometimes you have to dig a little and then people will find their thing and go for it but I think there is some people out there that just kind of expect life to happen and that’s just so boring. Cockiness, there’s a fine line between cocky and confident and it makes a huge difference. Lifetime couch potatoes. Bad manners.
32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood
I think where my mom grew up, San Quintin. It’s this ranch my grandparents have. I still going there but as a kid going to into town was the worst, I just wanted to stay on the ranch and explore and run around everywhere. It felt like one giant amusement park where I could go anywhere and do anything.
33:Talk about what you do when you are sad.
In rare moments I just make myself cry because I hold it in pent up for long and I start getting really cranky and snappy at people so then I end up getting really emotional one day and cry over something like a lost key but in reality I’m just really crying about everything that I have been holding in. I don’t like letting people see me cry, not many people have ha. When it’s something not that bad I kind of tend to just space out in my room. I’ll tell myself, okay 20 minutes just wallow in it and I just really get into it and think about it and how it’s not that bad and how I’ve gotten thru worse and find some way to get through it. Then my time is up and if I need to repeat it a couple times then I do that.
36:Talk about your guilty pleasures.
Ha hmmm, I can be sooo lazy. I just want to do nothing all day and wallow in food and tv and gush over my ships. It can get pretty bad hahaha.
39:Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier.
I wish I would have known how to save money better ha. I wish I would have known how clingy I am, and too giving and how not everyone deserves that much of me. I wish I would have known that saying No isn’t a bad thing and sometimes you just have to.
Ah this is long lol I loved doing it tho ha hope you enjoy it sweetwinterhello